I’m welcoming 2018 with open arms, because I’ve wanted 2017 to be over for a long time. It wasn’t a terrible year, and I won’t look back on it with hatred, but I also can’t think why I would need to look back on it. For the most part, 2017 was a blur. I can’t remember enough about it to comment. I got to travel a lot, which I loved – but I was also unemployed for three months, which I hated. Those two facts are the defining memories of the year. A lot of memories I had of this year, after discussing them with Matt, didn’t actually happen in 2017. I used to time my life based on what show I was on – but even that hasn’t worked this time around – as I can’t remember what shows I did. Continue reading
November was a massive turning point for me, health wise. Work piled up much more than I expected it to. From having no worked booked in at all, I suddenly ended up with more work than I could cope with. It wasn’t difficult work, on the contrary it was relatively easy – but while having daily headaches, work wasn’t something I could enjoy. Every day I woke up furious that my head hurt, and looked forward to nothing but going back to bed when I could fall asleep to escape my head pain. Continue reading
At some point during the last month, it dawned on me that if the theatre I currently work in suddenly stopped needing staff, I wouldn’t get a job elsewhere.
I love my job, I love the people I get to work with, I LOVE being on show call – but if I had to start again anew, with people I didn’t know, I don’t think I could. While I had 3 months of unemployment over the summer, I made no effort to find work with other companies because I was so scared. What if they didn’t like me? What if I’m actually rubbish at my job and it turns out I’ve only got this far because of the rest of the team? Continue reading
In the past four months I’ve visited my GP more times than I have over the past four years. After being plagued with migraines I decided enough was enough and I wanted to do something about it. At first, it seemed light sensitivity was the problem – as I’m often looking at very bright light in otherwise dark environments. When I had my eyes checked, and everything came back okay, my doctor moved on to the possibility that – while light was a problem, stress and anxiety could be making it worse. Just to be sure there were no further underlying problems, I went for a few blood tests, and I wore a blood pressure monitor for 24 hours while I was in work. I have to admit, wearing a blood pressure monitor was so uncomfortable. It went off every half an hour to take a reading and if it failed to take a reading, it would just try again, but this time it would get tighter. It made work very difficult, and sleeping even more so. I was glad to see the back of the thing the next morning. Continue reading