For the first time in a while I’m sitting here doing nothing.
I think I should be doing something, in fact, I know I should be doing something but I can’t be bothered. The next month is going to be really stressful for me, so I’m using this last evening to watch Iron Man and eat cake, only the cake is on hold right now because Iron Man is too good and the cake isn’t good enough to warrant leaving the room.
It’s been so long since I’ve read a comic. I used to read Spiderman almost all the time, because you could get those massive bumper books of the originals. There was something I quite enjoyed about reading the same comics that my dad read as a kid. I moved from The Amazing Spiderman to Peter Parker the Spectacular Spiderman, to Marvel Team Ups but then for some reason I stopped.
But it’s summer now, and in a month I’ll be finished with University, and I won’t be working as much as I did last year, so I’m going to relax, kick back with a few comics and sit in the sun. I never get to see the sun – I go into a theatre in the morning, spend all day in a room of bright, artificial light, and leave the theatre to go home in the dark.
People around me are scared of growing up, leaving university and going out into the real world. Theatre is a difficult business really – it is very “who you know” and reputations get made almost instantly. But I’m not scared at all, and that scares me. Should I be worried? Should the responsibility of bills and living be a pressure? Should I be concerned about the fact I might not get a job when I leave, after three years of training?
I’m not worried at all, and I don’t know if my attitude is too “hippy”. I am responsible, I know that when necessary I can knuckle down and work my arse off but right now I don’t see the need to. I have the rest of my life to worry, I don’t need to start now. And is there really anything to worry about? I have a home, I have a job, I have good friends, my health and I’m truely happy. I don’t need to worry.
Or do I? Does it all change drastically when you leave your education? Damn, I just don’t know


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