I’m welcoming 2018 with open arms, because I’ve wanted 2017 to be over for a long time. It wasn’t a terrible year, and I won’t look back on it with hatred, but I also can’t think why I would need to look back on it. For the most part, 2017 was a blur. I can’t remember enough about it to comment. I got to travel a lot, which I loved – but I was also unemployed for three months, which I hated. Those two facts are the defining memories of the year. A lot of memories I had of this year, after discussing them with Matt, didn’t actually happen in 2017. I used to time my life based on what show I was on – but even that hasn’t worked this time around – as I can’t remember what shows I did.
Seeing as I can’t attribute much to the past year, I’ve decided 2017 was the year of “meh.”
I don’t know what goals I set myself at the start of this year, because I deleted my blog in the summer (another “meh” moment) and hadn’t written them anywhere else. Let’s assume they related to weight, money, travel and family.
I probably weigh a bit less now than I did at the start of the year. I lost a noticeable amount of weight during an extremely demanding and physical show, but exercise triggered my migraines, so I put a lot back on once the show had finished, when I spent more time lying down. I’m more conscious of the foods I eat now though, and I can see the benefits in my skin, my energy and my mood as a result of the dietary change. My measurements have changed though, even if my weight hasn’t, as I’m currently writing this while wearing a size 12 top – a size I haven’t managed to squeeze into since before I started university!
Financially, things started badly and got steadily worse. After having to fork out nearly £6,500 on a tax bill (having only saved £4,000,) I then had three months of unemployment, which I still haven’t got over. I’ve had no time to build savings back up, and at the end of this month I’ll be paying another £1,000 in tax. Me and Matt had hoped to have a mortgage by now, but no such luck.
Finally, on the final day on 2017, my gerbil Rocky died. I’m not too sure what he died of, as he was fine the previous day, playing with Momo as usual. Seeing as Momo is still alive and healthy, and Rocky was showing no signs of ill health whatsoever, I can only assume it was a heart attack or stroke. I’m glad he didn’t suffer, but it was so unexpected. I miss him hugely, but at least Momo is still with us.
On the more positive side, travel has been good. In March, me and Matt visited Barcelona – a trip two years in the making, as we cancelled our first trip due to me getting offered a show. I also got to visit Edinburgh and Bristol while Matt was touring, and while three months off work ruined my monetary goals, it meant I got to spend lots of time with my family and we went on many trips around the north-west. I’ve seen so many sights this year, and for that I am hugely grateful.
2017 brought some unexpected successes too. I started an Etsy shop which sells paper prop templates to people, and even without advertising it, I’ve managed to make a few sales. Once I’ve got ten items up for sale I plan to start advertising, and I’m currently on six. I’d love to be able to start advertising within the first week of 2018!
Work have been very accommodating over some personal things I have going on, so I was able to take a step back from Stage Management, and be stage crew instead for the Christmas show. This meant I was able to work on the show, pushing the set pieces and completing stage cues, without having any major resposibilty (e.g. health and safety, prop repairs, etc.) so I had a very stress free Christmas. On top of being stage crew, though, I was also given a small part in the show – which is something that would have made me cry two or three years ago! I’m on stage three seperate times, and though it’s not something I want to make a habit of, I certainly enjoy it more than I expected!
Finally, my headaches are finally under control. I’ve written a few entries here, but the quick version is that I was suffering from chronic migraines, and after 3 months of tests, I’ve finally been given medication that works. The headaches had a huge impact on my mood, my productivity, my social life and my relationship (on Matt’s odd day off from tour, he’d spend his time at home looking after me) so I’m excited to see how much better 2018 is without headaches stopping me!
2017, as far as life goes, wasn’t a bad year – but when I’m 100 years old, and I’m telling stories to whoever will listen, there certainly won’t be anything from 2017 in those tales. I’m determined not to feel this way at the end of 2018!
How was your year? What were your unexpected successes?